the grass is always greener…

as a kid, it seemed like christmas only came every 2 years, now it comes like 3 times a year.  how is it possible that it’s already the middle of november?  I have a blue million things to do, and I don’t feel like doing any of them.  and now my time is shortening.  ugh.  where has the time gone?

halloween ’08, originally uploaded by hockamama.

from his perch on the well. lots of fun was had by my younguns, and way more candy than we need was pilfered from neighbors and friends.

well, today’s the day…the day we decide who our next president will be. rich and I just got back from voting, the first time in our marriage (even in our lives, actually) that we voted for the same presidential candidate. I sure hope our votes help.

I have always been liberal, that’s no surprise to anyone who knows me. I have, though, become more conservative over the last decade. however, this last year or so, I’ve seen my liberal roots come back. when I started going to church and really feeling the spirit move, I stepped back and looked at things a little differently. I have changed some of my opinions, mildly, but overall, I’m still the same girl at the core.

I have to say that it bothers me that christianity is so closely related to the conservative party. I try to live a christian life (I have yet to succeed, but I’ll keep trying till I die) and I don’t think that because I’m a liberal minded person that I can’t possibly know God. it feels to me that’s the message being sent by conservatives.

years ago, I decided that I wanted to know God, and I had a great minister who really helped me. he answered any question I had, and when he didn’t have the answer handy, he asked around and got back to me. I told him of my experiences with ‘christians’ and how I felt that if someone had to tell me they were christian, then I didn’t want to be around them. I still feel that you can tell more about how a person lives their life and treats others, than you can from what they say.

in my opinion (I don’t want to start a debate, but I don’t think I have enough readers to worry about that 😀 ) the conservative/republican party is trying awful hard to tell us what christians they are, but not showing us enough. I don’t want to be the christian who leaves behind a crippled spouse and children; who uses taxpayers money to make repairs to my house or fund trips for my family; who preaches abstinence and then forces my pregnant teenage daughter to marry out of some archaic belief that one mistake should be compounded by another; who starts a war because I can, not caring who will suffer for my decisions….

sorry, I’ve gone a little off track. I know that liberals make mistakes, too. but I think God is more forgiving than most of the conservatives I know. my friend’s daddy has a bumper sticker that sums it up for me:

‘Jesus was a liberal’